The question (Who am I?) is one that we ask ourselves when we begin the path of awareness and search for deeper meaning in our lives. Most of us define ourselves by the masks that we wear, the roles or archetypes that we put on like a piece of clothing. But that is not who we really are. We are far more than the masks or roles we assume and take on. We are spiritual beings living in a physical body.
Who am I? I am a sweet kindhearted soul who has learned and grown throughout my life. I have lived hard and softly, courageously and fearfully, enjoying and denying; and I have experienced great love and loss. All of these life experiences have shaped me and continue to do so every day.
I am becoming aware – or at least more often. I experience awareness and “being” a little more each day. It’s like transitioning from darkness, or at least lots of cloudy days, into the bright warm sunshine, into light. And it feels good, right and whole.
I am still afraid of the darkness that once consumed me – my thoughts and joy. It’s still in my body and I feel it. I realize through the power of divine presence that it is an illusion of my mind, so I keep returning to “being” by directing my attention to intention and I rest there in faith – in trustful surrender. It’s not always easy; it is a practice of mindfulness, breath work, meditation, discharging and recharging of energy. And when I am there, an expansive, permeating force penetrates every fiber of my “being”. Love is the only word I have for it and yet somehow it doesn’t fully describe the sensation because it isn’t devoid of awareness of suffering – it seems to embrace it, and through that embrace – peace, presence, compassion, acceptance and loving understanding energy takes its place.
Ask yourself the question: Who am I? Then answer it and begin “being”.